Dear Baby B

Dear Baby B,

Tomorrow morning we head to the hospital to pick you up.  We only know a little bit about you as of now.  I am not sure if it has fully hit us that tomorrow morning we are going to be parents again.  I cannot wait to see you and hold you.   I have dreamed about you for years.   You are loved and wanted.  We have been anticipating your arrival for months.  We are eager to welcome you into our home and our family.  We are eager to love you unconditionally forever.

Love,

Your New Parents

To Finally Let Go

 

For so long I kept letting myself think next month will be it...

next month you will get pregnant...

 

I can't even tell you how many next months have passed...

but it has been A LOT

 

As I sit here... 36... married for over 4 years and trying for a baby for just as long I know.

 

I know that my body will never create and carry another baby.

I am starting to accept and deal with it.

It sucks, but it is my reality.

 

Secondary infertility is my reality.