Different Dreams

I used to dream of becoming pregnant

and staying pregnant

and delivering a baby in a hospital.

Now I dream of getting a phone call

saying yes

and a baby showing up on our doorstep.

I used to dream of perusing through the baby name books and choosing the best names.

Now I wonder what will be the name of the baby that comes to us.

I used to dream that I would give birth to a baby with brown hair.

Curly brown hair and hazel eyes.

A baby that resembled my husband.

Now I dream of all sorts of babies.

Black and white babies.

Babies with blond hair or black curly hair.

Babies with blue eyes.

I used to dream of the perfect baby shower.

Now I dream about being able to round up enough stuff before our first placement arrives.

I used to dream about how I thought our family would expand through

Now I dream of how it will really be.